i dont really know where to start so here’s what’s going on and i’ll explain fuller later
-currently unemployed and hating it
-time running out on my housing
– no future prospects
-feeling defeated by my lack of progress made on guitar
– haven’t seen anyone i care about in weeks.
- haven’t been able to leave bed for the most part
- lack of desire
- unknown where to start, friends, family, loved ones…?
-not interested in meeting new people
- i hardly have time for people i already know
- hate being let down/ stood up/ wasting time
-gaming more often than usual
– having a harder time remembering to take both doses of medication daily
– feeling really anxious about my future and my life
- not doing anything makes it worse
- doing anything at all feels wrong
- there’s no break
-my personal career is tanking
- writing less and less lately
- at the point where i consider giving it all up but i dont even know how to do that
- my guitar is mostly frusterating me because i’m playing daily and its always sounding the exact same or worse
- i havent painted anything i thought was worth sharing in a long time
-i miss you and i hate it.
- i miss the way you said you loved me
- i miss the way we were together, and apart from everything
- i dont have anyone i can be that close with.
- I asked for this to happen in a million different ways other than directly
– im constantly uncomfortable
okay i’m just gonna post this
